the hell u should go

Waking up w/ bad dreams.

What a very bad sign for me.

I don't like the dream that i had.

Hope it wasnt a deja vu.

Argh damn.

Physics today.

Studied last night bt couldnt understand n dun noe how to use the formula given.

Went to school w/ no mood at all.

Asking around for help to teach me physics.

I'll ask him.

"****** ! Cn u teach me physics?"

Him, "Sorry i xtau larr suruh larr haikal ajar..."

Me, "fine"

"Haikal ! Teach me physics."

Haikal, "I xtau langsung. Paham2 jer lar"

Me, haihhhhzzzz...

Entered the class texted my mum saying i cnt do physics. Stupid subject n aint making any sense.

He entered the class, "****** ! Teach me physics ! I dun understand !", him, "Owh ok."

Me, owh owkeyyy. i wonder y he doesnt want to teach me. Am i dat stupid? Im nt asking him to teach me da whole fuck up chapters. Juz da basic its fine by me bt he didnt teach me a single thing n whenever i asked him to teach me, he would say "owhhh i xtau larr.. Haikal lg tau.." wtf? N when anyone asked u to teach them u would go n teach them bt nt me? At least juz teach me basics dats all. Its nt dat hard. U knew bt u dun want to teach me i wonder y. Tears already in my eyes. I was panicking cuz aint understand a bit bout physics. He knew better bt owh well he didnt when to teach me. Its okie. I get.. Mybe im too slow huh? Bt i thought muslims suppose to help each other. In fact ur malay n im malay too. Soo y cnt u juz teach me?

No one noes how devastated i am till nw n da tears still there (yeahhhh... im dat sensitive =.=).... Kinda shocked cuz jiran sendiri xnak tolong nak buat mcm ne kn? Even my classmate yg xpro physics tried to make me understand even a bit n shes chinese, ur a malay, muslim, n my neighbour dont even want to help me wat cn i do ryt? Owh well the hell u should go. Its nt fair. At least teach me even one question bt u said no, im not good in physics n i noe nothing. Really heartbroken. Nvm that. May Allah bless what u've learnt. Its okie. Im fine. Perfectly fine.