Yeah. Kau standard lain. Aku standard lain kan?

Cuz i sent a stupid chain letter i already got to know the real u. Yeahh.. Now keep on asking myself can i trusted u w/ all those secrets i told u before?

My only wish

Pangg..
Holyshit.
That hurts a lot.
But thank god it wasnt police that escort me to go home.
Haihz
I wish my parents could understand me better.
But they cant cuz they dont want to.
I didnt lie. Not at all.
Fuck.

becareful when ur taking a pic

Soo yeahh.. If u do not want people to think bad stuffs about u, U hav to be cautious the way ur acting on camera. Cuz it could leads to negative thoughts when someone sees it. It will be ugly when people get into a fight juz a cuz of stupid photo ryt? Well yeahh.. It could destroys a relationship. That is bad. Really really bad.

Anyway, we all are different. Our sentences have different meaning than others. Soo I'm trying to understand what u people are trying to tell me. Those words ur using, im trying to to get a hint of what u really mean. Cuz when we talk about limits, my limits are different than urs. Ur limits are different than mine. Aahh. That hits me. We're not the same. We never will be on the same page. We speak different languages. Thats y.

Trying to get control of my emotions but hell no, its not fun cuz without them, i get lost. I get lost to unreal world.

But without u, i would rather die, cuz ur my love, my life and my everything. I really love u sayang :)

Money changed people

$$$$$$$$$$$

Money changed people.

Money destroyed people.

Stupid people used money for fuck up stuffs.

Money broke someone's heart.

Money destroyed love.

Money made people hate each other.

Money broke family apart.

Money made people cheated on each other.

Money made people's life a disaster.

BUT

Money saved someone's life.

Money saved an orphan.

Money saved old people.

Money saved animals.

Money saved those unfortunate people,

Ermm what else?

I think that's it.

The money that we're talking about here

is a big junk of money

$_$

As u can see the dark side of money is too much.

I wonder if getting rich is everything.

Money really still going to change people around us.

Thinking of how bad people need those big junk of money,

Make me wonder,

How r they gonna deal with that evil green?

Can they control themselves?

Let say u've married to a damn rich guy,

If the guy is stupid n doesnt know the harm of it,

The guy will fall into a big black hole and no one can saves him.

Y?

Rich man means he will or he obviously will or he try not to cheat on his wife.

But i dare say,

98% of rich men will cheat on their wives.

How about the rich lady?

If the lady is shopaholic,

She will show off everything she got and show to the WORLD,

And if she's nice God bless her,

If she's not, Please let her die quickly.

Lol

But yeahh..

Its true though.

Although,

Many rich people are fuck up,

Without money they didnt become fuck up,

But once they got all the money,

Mannnn,

I cant imagine the stuffs that they're about to do.

But i didnt say all of them are.

Some of them really using the money in the right way.

And i am very impress of those people.

Syed Mokhtar al-Bukhary, Warren Buffet, Oprah Winfrey, Bill Gates,

And many more.

But the people that i really look up to are Syed Mokhtar al-Bukhary and Warren Buffet.

God bless them.

Soo yeahh..

I know u would say this over n over again,

"Money is everything",

But can u handle that evil greens?

Plum Pretty Sugar { Between the Seams }

Plum Pretty Sugar { Between the Seams }

Im not like u.

Look.

I am a trustworthy person.

I keep my mouth shut.

Watever shits happened i didnt tell my mamma bout it.

I dun get y the hell u wanna complaint bout me to ur parents n ur frens?

Im ur relative n u talked behind my back.

Its killing me.

It really is killing me till now.

I xpernah nak cerita kat my mum bukan2 pasal kau cuz ur my cousin.

My frens told me bout u.

Please larr weii.

I mmg benci gila org xnak mengaku buat salah. Berlagak baik.

I pray to God every single day to punish u for what u've did to me.

I get upset n sometimes i cried thinking of wat u did.

How could u?

Its not fair.

Im ur cousin n u did those stuffs behind my back.

Baik sgt ke diri kau tu yg kau nak kutuk org?

Sejahat jahat aku pun (or fuck up as u told ur mamma n frens),

Lagi keji org yg mengutuk saudara sendiri.

May God teach u a lesson.

Change?

People.

Can they really change for better?

Or they changed for better n then they got fed up being "goody-good" n went back to what they were or worse?

Can someone really change people?

Will it work?

No. I'm serious.

Can it really work using nice words, kindness n bla bla bla..

Will it really work?

Well yeahh..

Of coz everyone wants to become better person in every way..

But can they keep it up with their plan's to become a better person?

I'm just worried if I'll become worse than before.

Yeahh..

I am not a good person either.

Just being curious.

Scared if people that i love become worse in the future.

My sister, my brothers, my nieces, my nephews,

Or my own kids.

Which parents want to see their kids doing things that they shouldnt do?

Or the same mistakes that we did?

Well yeahh..

U can say "owh my parents damn cool. They dont really care about shits that i do."

R u really sure about that?

Yeahh.. Maybe they do not show their worries n caring enough about u cuz their too busy w/ their works..

But i really am sure they did cry n pray for their kids to become a better person n better parents in the future.

That hits me a lot.

Maybe the way we're acting ryt now,

Those fuck up things that we did, n still doing it,

Wont effect us ryt NOW in a way,

But hell yes.

It will effect our kids FUTURE.

Do u know y?

Cuz ryt now,

Shits that we did or doing it and we're OKAY with it even though we already knew that its WRONG,

And then we will actually let our kids doing it cuz we thought it's OKAY since we did those stuffs at their age.

Soo yeahh..

Seeing people around me,

What they're doing.,

The way they're acting,

The way they're thinking,

Really makes me think more about the future than the present.

What kind of person i want to be?

The path is right in front of me.

Just waiting for me to choose it.

Better or worse?

Darkness or brightness?

U can insult everything that i've just wrote.

Criticize me, saying Im just want attention cuz think im better than anyone,

Or call me just wanna show to the world that Im the only one who aint fuck up,

Or whatever shits u want to say about me.

Do i give a damn about it?

Maybe no maybe yes.

Depends on what ur criticizing.

Just want to let u know what i was thinking about.

Just want to share with u the reality.

Or should i say the patterns of our life.