Gheezz... Havnt update my blog 4 soo long =.=

Ollaaaa !!!! >.<

Gosh !! At last im actually updating my blog !!! Hahaha

Well, its wesak n i got soo bored n then saw my own link on my fb profile soo totally forgotten dat i hav a blog.. LOL XP

Hmm.. I dun noe wat to write though =\

Owh yeahh !! I hav great friends in skool !! I hav my bitches to keep my busy in class =.=

hahaha I hav a pet brother !! I love him soo much ! Lol.. At least he is nicer than my own lil brothers.. Those bastards at home annoyed me a lot T^T

I met a gentleman ! He aint dat hot at all.. Trust me.. He is lyk if im nt mistaken 8 years older than me? heh =.= Bt dun get me wrong.. He really is nice & gentleman ! At least he is a DJ.. U noe as in DJ.. ;) heheh

Well, there is another guy.. Bt i rejected him cuz he is bloody hell always ask me to top up 4 him and being a jerk lyk flirting every gurl on FB !!! Goshhh.. Get a life man !! =P

Im missing my bestfriend soo damn freaking a lot !!!! =(

Nway, im not gonna tallk bout my exams since i noe i did dis exam worst in my life !!!!! ARGHHHHHH =.=

Bored -.-

Watching anime lately.. Vampire bund, yumei.. sumthing2 i forgot n owh nodame too =) hahah
Sooo bored nothing else to do -.- hahah
Reading danielle steel's book.. Love it so much.. Learnt bout love soo much..
But still love being me =) hahah X ad kaitan langsung >.<
What goes around comes around.. U cheated on him, someone will cheat on u back soo better becareful lar... Sigh.. But nak wat mcm ne padan muka larr minah tu.. Perasan hot stuff n ingat diri tu bagus sgt.. Kn dah kena dump.. -.- dumbass... hahah

Bloody bitch (not meant for anyone though -.- hahah)

Met lyana..
Saw danial lembu...
He said "I'll see u later"
So wait in the canteen w/ my lovely lyana.. =)
Talk bout everything..
Mostly bout school..
Bout my ex?
Naaahhh... I dun want to talk bout it ever again..
Met Kistina..
Hugged her n gossip-ing w/ her.. (wat do u expect? Its me.. -.- hahaha)
Jyhah went to alya's house..
Damn..
Still waiting for him..
Time?
3.00 pm..
Cant wait longer..
Hav to go back du..
Accidently met pn. gan..
Shit..
Told her dat i hav to meet my sis..
Luckily she couldnt recognize me anymore..
Lyana sent me to the gate..
Hugged her..
Dun want to let her go but hav to =(
It was raining..
Got a cab..
My parents were already on their way to pick me up..
Another damn..
But i dat noe i'll be in time..
No sweat..
Got there in time..
Im safe... =)
Bloody wong -.-

Im tired

Dun tell me u understand y im still mad at you cuz u never did.. U cant read whats inside my heart.. Except God....
Y can i get over it? Y am i feeling soo disgusted? Y am i soo mad? Y? Damn.. I wish i knew da answers...
Shit... I hate myself...

Owwwwwwwwkeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Hahaha Im bored lar.. Nothing else to do lar.. Didnt go to school.. Y? Cuz i malas lar... Duhhh.... -.- hahah

Over ? Forget? Forgive? Needed?

A week later..

They thought i have forgotten what  had happend..

No NEVER..

Don't tell me that you 'NEVER' lie cuz dat is another lie that can hurts my feeling so badly..

They thought i will 'NEVER' found out the truth of themselves..

Yeah... Maybe for a short period of time.. After that tears keeps me company..

When i was in SMK BU3 lyana was there...

Now who is there for me?

No one.. Alone..

He was there when i cried but only once..

Lyana was there when i cried lots of time..

My mum scolded me like hell when she got to know bout him but i covered and back up him smoothly..

No information was leaking..

Arrived at school.. Can't talk.. Say a word, the tears will be there..

Lyana sensed what was happening...

Cried n told her everything what had happened..

It took a lot of time for me to calm down..

So whos there for me?

Lyana did..

It was bout him but was he there?

No..

Cried in the middle of night..

He cant sensed it..

But who did?
Lyana did..

So now they thought the smile on my face is a sign that i've already moved on..

I AM moving on..

Havent moved on yet..

They thought that im the kind of person that is easy to recover like those bitches who love to play around..

No.. I am not..

I will 'NEVER' forget what you did to me..

Even though it was a little lie u did..

Even though it was you who talk bad bout me behind my back..

Even though it was you who spread the rumours..

Even though it was you hurt me..

Even though it was you who cheated on me..

Even though it was you who asked me to treat you like they treat you..

Even though it was you i loved..

Even though it was you i hated..

Even though it was you who were being dishonest with me..

Even though it was you who gave up on me so fast..

Even though it was you i cried..

Even though it was who left me alone..

Even though it was you i crazy bout..

Forget? No.. Forgive? Maybe..

They thought i couldnt tell that they'r lying..

Fuck up..

Im easy to tell if dat person is lying..

So if i said u lied before..

That is the truth..

U want some prove..

Ok.. But dun u give dare to give fucking excuse bcuz u also know dat is the truth..

Yeah..

Maybe when read you this you thought i was cracked..

Maybe but Y?

becuz it was you who hurt me..

Yeah..

I may have very nice sweet cheerful looking face..

But can you tell how i felt inside?

No.. y?

Bcuz it wasnt me dat you care bout..

Shit.. I miss being strong..

DAMN................ -.- What happened SYGGGGGG?!

Epik high - love love love

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

I’m sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didn’t do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters

Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk?
(Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

I’m sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didn’t read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, I’m sure I'll see you again


Cant you get it??????????? What it stated inside the lyrics is 100% true.. Owh well i have better things to do to get it out from my brain.. Lyk ermmm stop picturing two better than one n starts thinking fun stuff to do ! Shittt...... But lyk what? hmmm =(