Over ? Forget? Forgive? Needed?

A week later..

They thought i have forgotten what  had happend..

No NEVER..

Don't tell me that you 'NEVER' lie cuz dat is another lie that can hurts my feeling so badly..

They thought i will 'NEVER' found out the truth of themselves..

Yeah... Maybe for a short period of time.. After that tears keeps me company..

When i was in SMK BU3 lyana was there...

Now who is there for me?

No one.. Alone..

He was there when i cried but only once..

Lyana was there when i cried lots of time..

My mum scolded me like hell when she got to know bout him but i covered and back up him smoothly..

No information was leaking..

Arrived at school.. Can't talk.. Say a word, the tears will be there..

Lyana sensed what was happening...

Cried n told her everything what had happened..

It took a lot of time for me to calm down..

So whos there for me?

Lyana did..

It was bout him but was he there?

No..

Cried in the middle of night..

He cant sensed it..

But who did?
Lyana did..

So now they thought the smile on my face is a sign that i've already moved on..

I AM moving on..

Havent moved on yet..

They thought that im the kind of person that is easy to recover like those bitches who love to play around..

No.. I am not..

I will 'NEVER' forget what you did to me..

Even though it was a little lie u did..

Even though it was you who talk bad bout me behind my back..

Even though it was you who spread the rumours..

Even though it was you hurt me..

Even though it was you who cheated on me..

Even though it was you who asked me to treat you like they treat you..

Even though it was you i loved..

Even though it was you i hated..

Even though it was you who were being dishonest with me..

Even though it was you who gave up on me so fast..

Even though it was you i cried..

Even though it was who left me alone..

Even though it was you i crazy bout..

Forget? No.. Forgive? Maybe..

They thought i couldnt tell that they'r lying..

Fuck up..

Im easy to tell if dat person is lying..

So if i said u lied before..

That is the truth..

U want some prove..

Ok.. But dun u give dare to give fucking excuse bcuz u also know dat is the truth..

Yeah..

Maybe when read you this you thought i was cracked..

Maybe but Y?

becuz it was you who hurt me..

Yeah..

I may have very nice sweet cheerful looking face..

But can you tell how i felt inside?

No.. y?

Bcuz it wasnt me dat you care bout..

Shit.. I miss being strong..