the hell u should go

Waking up w/ bad dreams.

What a very bad sign for me.

I don't like the dream that i had.

Hope it wasnt a deja vu.

Argh damn.

Physics today.

Studied last night bt couldnt understand n dun noe how to use the formula given.

Went to school w/ no mood at all.

Asking around for help to teach me physics.

I'll ask him.

"****** ! Cn u teach me physics?"

Him, "Sorry i xtau larr suruh larr haikal ajar..."

Me, "fine"

"Haikal ! Teach me physics."

Haikal, "I xtau langsung. Paham2 jer lar"

Me, haihhhhzzzz...

Entered the class texted my mum saying i cnt do physics. Stupid subject n aint making any sense.

He entered the class, "****** ! Teach me physics ! I dun understand !", him, "Owh ok."

Me, owh owkeyyy. i wonder y he doesnt want to teach me. Am i dat stupid? Im nt asking him to teach me da whole fuck up chapters. Juz da basic its fine by me bt he didnt teach me a single thing n whenever i asked him to teach me, he would say "owhhh i xtau larr.. Haikal lg tau.." wtf? N when anyone asked u to teach them u would go n teach them bt nt me? At least juz teach me basics dats all. Its nt dat hard. U knew bt u dun want to teach me i wonder y. Tears already in my eyes. I was panicking cuz aint understand a bit bout physics. He knew better bt owh well he didnt when to teach me. Its okie. I get.. Mybe im too slow huh? Bt i thought muslims suppose to help each other. In fact ur malay n im malay too. Soo y cnt u juz teach me?

No one noes how devastated i am till nw n da tears still there (yeahhhh... im dat sensitive =.=).... Kinda shocked cuz jiran sendiri xnak tolong nak buat mcm ne kn? Even my classmate yg xpro physics tried to make me understand even a bit n shes chinese, ur a malay, muslim, n my neighbour dont even want to help me wat cn i do ryt? Owh well the hell u should go. Its nt fair. At least teach me even one question bt u said no, im not good in physics n i noe nothing. Really heartbroken. Nvm that. May Allah bless what u've learnt. Its okie. Im fine. Perfectly fine.

hmmm =\

Its the way i live...

Its juz dat way soo stop bothering me k???

lol

What am i bluffing? -___-

Anyway, lifes well so-so..

Lost contact w/ my pet (kampan) cuz hes stuck w/ dat bitch.. haihzzz

Told him soo many time not to get involved w/ dat woman =.=

Owh well thank god its him nt me !
muahahahahah

Basically im boreddd till death here..

Me and my weird imagination..

Haihzzzzz

its hard its hard =.=

LOL

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The thing that i love

Owkeyyy..

Im at home.

Nt knowing what to do...

Fineeee..

I dont want to study...yet =.=

LOL

Hohoho

Let me tell u what the things that i really love n do anything not to let anyone take them away frm me.

My sis..

n my family..

no matter how much i hate my dad n my mum n si gemuk n annoying my brother..,

they'r still part of me that i would never let go..

Yeahh i noe sumtimes its my fault n all...

bt life is hard.. Never been easy...

me, bazli (si gemuk), nadhirah (my beautiful sis), irfan (annoying brother). :)

N then the guy who changed my life, almost all, helped me a lot, been really damn patient w/ my bloody attitude..(heh.. its me fatinah.. not easy to handle -___-)

Im in love w/ him a lot.. Nt more than my family bt still..

More than anyone i have to say..

Love is all i need,

I've waited all my life,

You got me on my best behavior. - n-dubz

Yeahhh.. U got me afiq.. Love u lots :)

He n his weird thought -____- lol

N of coz my home sweet home..

My bed, my pillows, my books, n bla bla bla

Bt i love my pillows the most.. It was handmade pillows by my own grandmother..

Mostly i had them since i was standard 3...

It was by then my grandma fell sick till now..

Soo she cnt walk nor cook nor sew..

Yeahhh she was the person who baby-sit when i was baby till i was standard 2..

N my grandfather.. Goshh i miss him..

I still cnt forget when he got back frm work, me n my cousin, i was 2 years old n faiz a year younger than me, we will ride atuk's motorcycle n he will watch us.. yeahh.. sweet memories..

Missing my childhood moments.. Me n my cousins...

We were always together... Me, farhan, harith, amin, alan, safwan, we were close..

Bt now things never be the same..

Everyone w/ their own egos.

Y things have to change?

Sumtimes i wish we could never grow up..

The wish that will never come true..

Enough w/ dat sad moment -___-

lol

Owkeyyyyy back to what i actually wanted to post..

Jeng..jeng..jengggggg... >.<

OH EMM GEEEEEEE !!!!!!

I am sooooooo in in in love w/ Cheryl Cole n Tulisa (n-dubz)

They'r hot people w/ talents.. Yeahhh babyyyy... They'r hot as hell...

I love cheryl.. Shes hot.. She has beautiful smile w/ dimples..

Tulisa is hotzzz too ! She has curve body dat is really hotzz...

hahahah n no im not gay...

Juz loveeeee to c hot beautiful girls ! Lol

N ermmm i have taste okieee??? =.=

Niceeeeeeeeeeee

Hohoho

Had fun today..

My dad's family came to my house for ya noee da nasi briyani n talk n talk n talk n politic.. =.=

Lol

Aqil came to my house..

The VVIP according to my dad.

Lol

At 1st he was shy n hiding behind his dad !

WTH? =.=

N then he came to my mum n said "Mak Ngah masak nasi briyani ! Aqil suka !"

Haihzzzz

Always bout da food huh aqil? XP

 "Ayah suapkan abang?"

 Clockwise : Izzah zahirah, Aqil's little sis ! Shoooooo CUTE ! LOL 

Aqil : Hmmm kereta ayah kotor kena lap (me: =.=)

Aqil lovessssssssssssssssss taking pix ! He is sooo A-D-O-R-A-B-L-E ! >.<

Kak Syafinaz' daughters : Goshhh !! I can never be a nice sis lyk dat -___-" lol

Hohoho

N then met afiq aka my love today !

I gave packed him sum of nasi briyani..

I asked aqil to go w/ me n hes lyk "jauh lg ke kaklong? Aqil penat lar..."

Me " aqil gemuk sgt kena larr exercise =.="

lol

N then i hand in da nasi briyani to afiq n asked aqil to shake hand w/ him..

He did while hiding behind my back n hugging my butt =.=

lol

N then he said "Bye Abg Afiq !"

I was lyk awwwwwwwwww >.<

lol

Hohohoh

I love u sayang.. Ur da best damn thing happened to me :D

Briyani mari :D

Arghh gross..

Now i feel my insecurity coming back n i hate when it happened..

Its a total bitch feeling ok?

Shit..

I shouldnt open urs.

Argh fuck fuck fuck !

Sorry for dat particular word hav been repeat well not dat much

Bt hey u cant blame me when shits happened.

Aint my fault ok???? =.=

Owh fuck it

The HELL u go

Owh owh owh 

Tomorrow my little cousin will come to my house

hes 3 years old bt phewwww

damn heavy n love to talk

Last saturday, my mum called my aunt.. bt she didnt answer da phone call bt my little cousin did.

Mak : Helloooo ! Boleh cakap dengan ummi??

Da person : Hello hello helloooooooooo !!! Ummi sibuk larrr.. Baby nak susu ! Ini siapa??

Mak : Ini mak ngah larr.. Sape tuu??

Da person : Ini aqil larrr.. Mak ngah mana?

Mak : Mak ngah ayah ngah larr.. Aqil dah makan k belum??

Aqil : Dahh makannn.. Ayah beli roti canai satuu.. Mak ngah mana nasi briyani?

Mak "kak long aqil ingat lg pasal nasi briyani tuu..." Me " hahahah gedik arr gemuk tuu -___-"

Mak : Nasi briyani?? Mak ngah belum masak lagi larr... Nanti mak ngah masak aqil dtg rumah okie?

Aqil : Okie mak ngah !! Ummi ummi ummi mak ngah nak masak nasi briyani !!

well dats how it went..

Aqil wanted to eat nasi briyani n he wants my mum to cook for him... He asked her every chance he had.. It was funny actually dat he still remember it as i thought he would forget bout nasi briyani overnite bt clearly i was wrong =.= lol

cant wait to c him !

N FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ADDMATH ON MONDAY ! The shitting addmath on mondayyyy..

Well actually along w/ da ohhhh-too-complicated-subjects-for-me-dat-i-would-rather-die-than-answer-it =\

Lol 

Maybeeee i was a little melodrama bout it but owh well fuck it.

I cant understand y on earth i learnt addmath when i dun even understand it whats addmath really bout..

Owhhhh damn =.=

Be a reasonable friend is what i always ask for.

I sacrificed a lot for u n in the end i got nothing..

Hohohoho i think i have terrible luck in finding real friends.

Maybe my real friends havnt got into their "matured" moments n thoughts soo yeahhh..

Tunggu dah tuaa lar jawab nyer...

Lol

Bt hey i always there for u soo u dun hav to worry bout me going far okie? :)

Im missing my goat.. :(

The small little thing

Owhhh la la laaaaaaaa ~

I think im insane..

Shut up !!!

I can hear u said yes to urself u freak =.=

Lol

Owhhhhkeyyyyyyyyyy  Notice the title up there?

It means baby.

Notice the word "BABY" there?

Yes. Baby. Only when they'r small little thing..

When they more than 3 years old they get to be very annoying..

Which i really dun lyk =.=

I can be mother type at one time n can hate them at the same time..

Weird bt dats da truth...

Lol

Bt bt bt i only love cute babiessss....

Only da cute one.. Dats all..

If not i would be like "get off from me u little monster !!" -____-

hahahaha  I used to glare at the small kids n they cried cuz they were scared of me..

My mum hit me when i did dat bt it was fun thing to do..

I still remember when i was sitting alone next to my mum n then suddenly dis little girl i think she was about 3 years old came to me n do da smiley face.. I looked at her n juz glared at her. N then she stand ryt in front of me suddenly cried. Loud. Damn loud n she ran off to her mum. I was laughing my arse off mannnnnn.. It was serious shit funny. N then my mum gave me dis look "u-better-behave-like-a-16-years-old" n then i immdiately keep my mouth shut. N my mum said sorry to da mother.. She juz smile at me. n then she laughed. Heheheh At least i dun have little kids as my dinner. MUAHAHAHAH

Owh well, today i heard ryan seacrest talking about which gender is easier to handle? Boy or girl?

Well most of people would respond boys r easier to handle than girls which is true..

Lol

Even my parents especially my dad always said to me.. "I cnt handle u anymore. I'll leave u in God's hand."

Gheezzzz.. Cnt he be nicer to me ? =.=

Owh owh owh i went to my grandma's house today n my aunts were there..,

n_n mak jah brought dis 2 years old cute little girl n da moment i saw her i was already half crazy bout her..

Her name is Iris Irdina i think.. Beautiful name..

N shes damn cuteeeee n she wasnt afraid of me. at all. Lol

Dats a good thing.

OwhFUCKCRAP,

Lately i did my exam freaking horrible.

I had forgotten what i studied n read n i even ask forgiveness frm God and begged Him to help me bt he didnt..

Lol

 N tomorrow is agama..

*sigh

Exam is bullshitting w/ my life.. F ! =.=