Bloody bitch (not meant for anyone though -.- hahah)

Met lyana..
Saw danial lembu...
He said "I'll see u later"
So wait in the canteen w/ my lovely lyana.. =)
Talk bout everything..
Mostly bout school..
Bout my ex?
Naaahhh... I dun want to talk bout it ever again..
Met Kistina..
Hugged her n gossip-ing w/ her.. (wat do u expect? Its me.. -.- hahaha)
Jyhah went to alya's house..
Damn..
Still waiting for him..
Time?
3.00 pm..
Cant wait longer..
Hav to go back du..
Accidently met pn. gan..
Shit..
Told her dat i hav to meet my sis..
Luckily she couldnt recognize me anymore..
Lyana sent me to the gate..
Hugged her..
Dun want to let her go but hav to =(
It was raining..
Got a cab..
My parents were already on their way to pick me up..
Another damn..
But i dat noe i'll be in time..
No sweat..
Got there in time..
Im safe... =)
Bloody wong -.-

Im tired

Dun tell me u understand y im still mad at you cuz u never did.. U cant read whats inside my heart.. Except God....
Y can i get over it? Y am i feeling soo disgusted? Y am i soo mad? Y? Damn.. I wish i knew da answers...
Shit... I hate myself...

Owwwwwwwwkeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Hahaha Im bored lar.. Nothing else to do lar.. Didnt go to school.. Y? Cuz i malas lar... Duhhh.... -.- hahah

Over ? Forget? Forgive? Needed?

A week later..

They thought i have forgotten what  had happend..

No NEVER..

Don't tell me that you 'NEVER' lie cuz dat is another lie that can hurts my feeling so badly..

They thought i will 'NEVER' found out the truth of themselves..

Yeah... Maybe for a short period of time.. After that tears keeps me company..

When i was in SMK BU3 lyana was there...

Now who is there for me?

No one.. Alone..

He was there when i cried but only once..

Lyana was there when i cried lots of time..

My mum scolded me like hell when she got to know bout him but i covered and back up him smoothly..

No information was leaking..

Arrived at school.. Can't talk.. Say a word, the tears will be there..

Lyana sensed what was happening...

Cried n told her everything what had happened..

It took a lot of time for me to calm down..

So whos there for me?

Lyana did..

It was bout him but was he there?

No..

Cried in the middle of night..

He cant sensed it..

But who did?
Lyana did..

So now they thought the smile on my face is a sign that i've already moved on..

I AM moving on..

Havent moved on yet..

They thought that im the kind of person that is easy to recover like those bitches who love to play around..

No.. I am not..

I will 'NEVER' forget what you did to me..

Even though it was a little lie u did..

Even though it was you who talk bad bout me behind my back..

Even though it was you who spread the rumours..

Even though it was you hurt me..

Even though it was you who cheated on me..

Even though it was you who asked me to treat you like they treat you..

Even though it was you i loved..

Even though it was you i hated..

Even though it was you who were being dishonest with me..

Even though it was you who gave up on me so fast..

Even though it was you i cried..

Even though it was who left me alone..

Even though it was you i crazy bout..

Forget? No.. Forgive? Maybe..

They thought i couldnt tell that they'r lying..

Fuck up..

Im easy to tell if dat person is lying..

So if i said u lied before..

That is the truth..

U want some prove..

Ok.. But dun u give dare to give fucking excuse bcuz u also know dat is the truth..

Yeah..

Maybe when read you this you thought i was cracked..

Maybe but Y?

becuz it was you who hurt me..

Yeah..

I may have very nice sweet cheerful looking face..

But can you tell how i felt inside?

No.. y?

Bcuz it wasnt me dat you care bout..

Shit.. I miss being strong..

DAMN................ -.- What happened SYGGGGGG?!

Epik high - love love love

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice
2:00 a.m., the abruptly ended phone call

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world?
Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded?
Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?

I’m sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didn’t do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters

Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair?
Started smoking again?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk?
(Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up

I’m sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didn’t read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours

Can't stop love
Why? I loved you like crazy
Why? I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy

Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person

Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone
Say love!

Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop
Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop
Love love love

Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, I’m sure I'll see you again


Cant you get it??????????? What it stated inside the lyrics is 100% true.. Owh well i have better things to do to get it out from my brain.. Lyk ermmm stop picturing two better than one n starts thinking fun stuff to do ! Shittt...... But lyk what? hmmm =(

Soo much for my happy ending !

Owkeeeyyyyy.. Today was damn tiring.. Had a maulidur Rasul at home.. Quite fun.. Got lamb tau !!! hahah My mum cooked it as hawbatussaudar sumthing dat has da same pronounciation (sorry if its wrong spelling hahah ! -.-) senang citer kambing masak hitam.. Damn nice.. Slrppp... Shit.. Im still hungry though... Anyway juz create a facebook.. Soo add me ! =) My head is full of you-know-whos-da-person.. Damn.. Stop thinking bout him fatinah.. Its over ! Soo move on !!! >.<

I will survive

She always there for me no matter what.. He always there for me even though he always late to be there for me but owh well i guess i cant stay mad at him for soo long since he is my favourite pet kn danial kampan? haha
Gosh.. For some reason i feel soo much better to hear her voice.. Tears coming out from my eyes.. She always can sense my sadness no matter how hard i hide it.. Shes da only friend dat can c and touch da sadness of mine.. Being sum1's gurlfriend is tough..Even though u c it as a simple thing.. This cuz i've never been soo madly in love with sum1 even though i dun show it bt god noes bout everything.. I always be an egomaniac n try to control my lovey-dovey side of me.. I've never show it to any1 cuz im scared if i really show it n then after a long time he got bored he left me alone.. Luckily he aint my husband.. Pheww.. hahah

The journey of my life today

Went to ou. Meet haziq n jyhah n memey. Haziq and i off to the movie. Jyhah went to mid valley to meet him. After movie i was hungry. Off to Old Town. Ring ring..! Haziq's hp. His dad asked him to go back home lyk at da moment. No kiss. No hug. No make out. No nothing. Its hurtful. But its alright its ok. An hour later. Someone called me. Where was i? MPH
Da person: "Fatinah! Ko dah break up k?! WHAT HAPPEN????"
Me : "No ! He juz left me n he had to go back cuz his mom ada breathing difficulty"
Da person : " What ?! R u sure? Cuz he juz changed his status from 'in relationship' to 'single' lyk damn.... FEW MINUTES AGO !!!"
Me : Said nothing.. Cried.. Went to da toilet..
Called haziq..
Me : "Hows ur mom?"
Haziq "Shes okay dah"
Me : "I nak break up"
Haziq : "Yeah me too"
Owhkey....... Thats how it went..
In side da toilet..
Called lyana.. Cried.. Told her everything.. Hung up.. Still crying.. Hakem..
Me : "Ko kat mana?"
Hakem : "Rumah.. Asal ko menangis?"
told him everything what happen..
HAH !! He mastered all... He told me everything bout guyz.. Stop crying.. laughed cuz he made jokes from it.. Felt soo much better.. Blamed me.. My fault.. I didnt treat him as a girlfriend should.. He thought that jyhah is wayyy important than him bt did he know that i fought w/ jyhah b4 to clear up his image.. Owh well.. Bad day for me, jyhah, and danial.. Called amin..
Me : "Amin plizz come to ou.. Teman me jap.. Dun tell my mum.."
Amin : "Buzy lar... Mak uda tau k tak yang awak nie kat ou?"
Me : "Tau.."
Amin : "Dgn sape skrang nie?"
Me : "Alone" (try no to cry)
Amin : " What ?! Serious lar.. Takkan sorang2 jer nie..??"
Me : "He left me n juz broke up..K lar.. Xpe.. Bye"
What was and am i thinking now? Hakem was ryt bout everything.. =)
Sad. Cry. Darkness. Painful. Heartbroken. Love? No thax.. Im done with it..

Cry lyrics

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole 'in love' thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' 'round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losin' grip, what's happenin'?
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'Cause it's hurtin' me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more

I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' 'round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losin' grip, what's happenin'?
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you? I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do, stay away from lovin' you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show, you won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
(You'll never see me cry)

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
On my life

Its ALRIGHT ! Its OKIE ! =)

It's Alright It's Ok lyrics

You told me
there's no need
To talk it out
Cause its too late
To proceed
And slowly
I took your words

No looking back
I wont regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright , OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

You played me
Betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrait a role
You took control, I
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright , OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

Don't waist you fiction tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It's Way to late
I'm closing the door

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry
Alright, OK
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright , OK
I'm so much better without you
I won't be sorry

It's Alright, OK
Alright, OK
Without you
No matter what you
It's Alright, OK
Alright, OK
Without you
I won't be sorry =)